Thursday, February 19, 2009
Dearest Alya will turn 3-weeks old tomorrow. And she’s growing so fast.
Hmm.. how time flies.. Which also mean, I’m halfway done with the confinement already.. yay! Counting down to my so-called ‘independence day’. I don’t know why but I cant stand all the temptations. Like the in-laws eating Chicken McSpicy while on the other hand I had to eat something that I will only eat when I have to (at times like this). And oh, today father-in-law brought home coconuts. So they had cold coconut drink on a hot day while I just sit n look with watery mouth. sigh. Ok, enough.
On a happier note.. I’m losing weight! Like finally. Yippidee yay!
Ok, I already lost all that I gained during pregnancy (that was 10kg) and also, I’m losing more! Yes I know.. I really have lots to lose anyway.. but hey.. it aint easy!
So I said goodbye to my swollen feet.. hehe. Hello to healthier n better lifestyle.. =)
Anyway, like Nozie said.. I cant believe I am a mother.
The girl who used to be in school with her, *ehem* school with her, work together with her.. is now a mother. Haha… tanx eh nozie.. I find it hard to believe too.
I’m no longer just a daughter, used to be a fiancée, a wife n a daughter-in-law…I am now a mother too. Again, how time flies.. *thinks dreamily*
Eh okay.. I gtg now. Time to feed the lil one.
Till then… TGIF tomorrow.. heee…
♥ Yet Another Butterfly Landed @ 11:55 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
I finally found the time to do this.
As requested by many, to know what I went through before labour, during labour and of cos, when I was giving birth. This memory I will always keep.
Before I begin, I must say that this is neither for the faint-hearted nor for those who are contemplating not to have kids in the future.
This is about me. My very own unique experience. Everyone who go thru this similar experience will have a different story about what they themselves go thru.
Apologies for the long entry. If u cant stand long entries, then dont read.
I am not doing this as a favour to anyone. Nor am I doing this to be proud or to welcome sympathy of any kind. Thank you. =)
29 Jan-30 Jan
That night (29Jan) I will never forget. Cant sleep though I was very tired from the long walk to and fro in-laws place and Holland V with hubby. This was part of my daily walk which is a form of exercise. Heh. When we returned, my back and hips were aching. Managed to sleep at about midnight but was awake at almost 2am. My hips were aching again. Ignored the pain and went back to sleep at about 3.30am. At 5 plus in the morning, again it was aching. Hubby woke up and asked if I wanted to go hospital – which of cos I didnt want. Then I couldn’t sleep. Later in the morning i had tummy ache and hubby told his mum. Even I felt like I needed the toilet to pass motion, she refused to let me. Called my gynae clinic to change my next appointment which was supposedly on 2Feb. Asked if she was available today itself (30Jan). So, off we went to Thomson Med Ctr. And oh, we brought my hospital bag.. just in case I needed it.
Reached TMC around noon. Dr Khi placed me on the monitoring machine and checked I was almost 2cm dilated. She advised me that it would be better to induce me as my blood pressure is already high and to avoid any other complications.
Since I desperately wanted the pain to go away soon and because I’m prepared with my hospital bag, hubby and I agreed it’s best to agree with her. She inserted the tablet and continued to monitor me.
At 2.30pm I was brought to the labour ward. Hubby did the admission and I was led to the observation room. Changed into the gown and I was placed on the monitoring machine again. Hubby came back and sat next to my bed. As the time passed, I started to feel more contractions.. Now I know how it really felt like. The nurses came to check on me once in a while and monitored my BP. 2 hours later, I started to feel really uncomfortable with the increasing pain which came on and off but at regular intervals. The nurse asked if it was bearable and I just nodded my head. I wanted to hold on as long as possible. I was in pain most of the time but to kill boredom, I snapped pics of myself n hubby.
By 5.30pm, the nurse came and told me she was going to give me sumting to clear my bowels and then bring me to the labour ward afterwards. I was placed in Child Birth Rm 1.
At 6.30pm, Dr Khi came to check on me. What I couldn’t believe was, after enduring all that pain, I was only 3cm dilated. Damn. 7cm more to go. Everyone started to assume it will be a very longggg labour. So I waited, waited n waited. The TV didn’t do much cos I was too lost in the pain to be bothered with watching TV. I said some prayers I knew and concentrated at every contraction. I kept telling myself it wont be long till I get to hold my baby. Hubby saw how hard I tried to sit up or rock myself hoping the pain will ease. Hubby brought my camera and we took a few shots in the labour ward. This was a form of distraction, thou only I knew how hard it was to keep that smile on my face.
Anyway at about 7.30pm, I finally gave in and asked the nurse for gas. At this point of time, I was practically grinding my teeth together and groaning loudly at every contraction. My tummy hardened when the contraction was at its peak and it felt so much worse than having menstrual cramps. When I finally get to inhale the gas, I swear I thought I was flying. Haha. Really… I felt high. I guess that’s what it does. To distract from the pain. Everything I see seemed to be in slow motion but my hearing is still working perfectly. I felt like in a daze. When the nurse taught me how to inhale and exhale using the gas, I felt like closing my eyes to sleep. Yes, that was how strong the effect was initially for me. I was supposed to use the gas until the end of each contraction but sometimes I still held on to the mask until the next one came. At one point I felt too dependent on the gas and I forced myself to let it go.
Time passed so fast.. at about 8.30pm the nurse told me that my bladder was full and placed a bedpan under me to urinate. I tried, but I cant. After 10mins or so, she came and asked me to try again, but still I couldn’t. Funny thing was I actually told her to walk me to the toilet and I will definitely clear my bladder. And the nurse actually agreed. Haha… so I had to leave the gas and walk to the toilet. She gave me 2 mins but by then I was still in the toilet. She asked me if I was done and I said yes and told her I felt like passing motion. At that instance she said no and forced me out of the toilet and back to the bed. She strapped the monitoring thingy and handed me the gas mask again. And so I waited and endured every single contraction again with the help of gas. I don’t remember much what happened later cos I was sooo in pain and the next thing I asked from the nurse was for Petadine – the pain killer injected on my right thigh. Sadly, this doesn’t do much help to me. Even the gas effect was starting to wear off. The nurse prompted if I wanted epidural but I just shake my head and said maybe not yet. So I hung on to the mask tightly and kept using it.
Then at about 9.30pm, the nurse checked me again and this time I was 5cm dilated only. Knowing this really didn’t help much. I used the gas more and closed my eyes while listening to whatever going on. Later I heard the one of the nurses telling the other to turn me to my left side. I don’t recall clearly why but I remembered them saying something about the baby. The next thing I realised I was forced to lie on my left – which is something I cant do on my own as there was this excruciating pressure on lower abdomen. It was that painful that I cried while clinging on to the left bed handle. I was instructed to breathe in more gas and I heard the nurse telling me not to push if I had the urge cos I was not fully dilated yet. When I opened my eyes to look at the clock, it was already 10 plus at night. Hubby stood next to me and fed me some water (air zam-zam) by straw. After that I closed my eyes and used the gas again. The pain was almost unbearable, and I was like semi-conscious, almost asking for epidural. But every time I wanted to tell the nurse, I stopped and waited. Then I heard one of the nurses calling my name, telling me have patience and it wont be long till I see my baby. I really felt the contractions worsen and the nurse guided me how to breathe in and out. She tried to calm me and at almost every contraction, I felt like pushing. And every time I felt like pushing, the nurse – who is a Malaysian and could converse in Malay, gave me instructions.
Whatever happened next, I cant recall much. But then I saw Dr Khi and the nurses were pulling trays next to my bed. Then they placed my legs on the stand and I realised this was it. The moment I have been waiting for the previous 37weeks. I felt hubby was next to me and Dr Khi told him to relax and just hold my face. I heard them telling me to push. I pushed. Ouch. They told me to push again, harder. I took a deep breath and pushed. Ouch…Ouch. I heard them saying they could see the head already and told me to give one more BIG push. So I gathered whatever energy and strength I had, took a deep deep breath and PUSHED. And finally out she comes on 30 Jan @ 2251 hrs… after almost 8 and a half hours of labour. They showed hubby n me our baby and asked hubby to cut the umbilical cord. Then the nurse cleaned and brought the baby out to do the measurements and hubby followed. Dr Khi then did the necessary cleaning on me and did the stitches. Once everything was done, the nurse handed me our little princess and pushed us to level 3. My parents, my in-laws, mami leha n family, mami norma n family as well as mila and family were still there waiting for us. They crowd around my bed to meet Nur Alya Insyirah and congratulated hubby n me. Baby was then brought to the nursery and I was pushed to ward 330.
That was the beginning of parenthood for hubby and me.
That's all for now.. gotta go catch some sleep before baby wakes up for milk.
Till my next entry... nitez!
♥ Yet Another Butterfly Landed @ 10:30 PM
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
This is soooo gonna be a short entry.
Anyways... just to update.. that my bundle of joy is finally here on 30 January 2009 after 37weeks of pregnancy and, 8hours and 21mins of labour. hehe.
Pics are updated in Facebook. Add me thru fadhilah86@hotmail.com.
In the meantime... here are some pics thou... =)
That's all then... till my next update.. cheerios... Dila outz....
♥ Yet Another Butterfly Landed @ 11:13 PM
